PURPLE ZOMBIE GIRL'S BLOG

Yummy yummy chicken gnocci and I got cute black curtains. My room is super clean now and I look sooo good a stranger complimented my outfit. I also looked at the hamsters at petco and it makes me want to get one even more because they're so trapped there :( By the way knicks in four the spurs can fucking rot! And not in the fun zombie girl way. I hope you guys have a good day and you do something nice for yourselves. For me I have been going on bike rides and I found wild honeysuckle. I brought it home to share with the fam. oki bye :P

Ugh guys I need a job so bad I am tired of not feeling in control of my life. I have an interview thing kinda I get something promising out of it. Everyone in my life expects more of me like it's hard but it is not like they're dissapointed in me just think I should be doing more. I want to feel like I belong man I am just so tired and confused all the time.

Judith Butler's article on gender performativity did a number on me. I don't feel like I fit into the social constructs of man or woman, I am just me. I have been called weird enough times to understand I do not always fit in. Lol like this girl told me at a party that I am wierd and that it's not a positive or negative thing. Who says that?!?! Like girl I'm just trying to have jello shots and carve a stick to put a marshmallow on. That marshmallow I roasted came out real real good and I danced to the Yin Yang twins. I love my life. But yeah do I make a post on IG about it or just let people figure out on their own? Lemme know.

I thought my family would be judgy if I started doing edgier makeup but no one cares lol. I am having a lot of fun wearing black lipstick it makes me happy and feel more like myself. :P

Sophomore year is almost done hell yeah. I love college but I am sleepy. Being home will be nice because I can go to the grocery store and eat avocados. I will also be biking like crazy. I'm working on an actual Zombie archetype to be a tool for people to use to describe living with chronic conditions under neoliberalism. Wish me luck!

I am having a pretty good time in lifeee. I feel good, my classes I think I will have all A's which is awesome. Classes next semester are going to be so cool three of them are about the labor movement which will be so fucking cool. Yesterday I went to a talk with Dr. Brian Kwoba and he gave me a signed book for free! Reading it is going to be so cool because it's anout Hubert Harrison multi-faceted and intersectional approach to life in the early 1900's. I hope to learn and reflect on my own life from reading this. Plus I got a single for next year- Sweeeeeeeeeeet. Other stuff is great too but I don't wanna be a bore. :P

Please welcome combined adhd and unspecified bipolar disorder to the statge! Now I can get the proper therapies and accomodations I need. This means that there is a new mission in my life. Mission Hamster: get an esa letter to have a hamster in my dorm. I am so excited I think I'll be able to get one. Give me name suggestions pls

It bloomed! The flower was so beautiful and to be honest the smell was quite mild though it definitely worked to attract pollinators. Those pollinators were roaches btw and there were like ten of them. It was tall and gorgeous and worth the wait to see it bloom. I helped a woman take a picture with it which made me happy. Photo will be below.

I go into the greenhouse and there was a baby corpse plant that was bloomed? It reeked it was crazy, and very beautiful. I will add a photo below. I'm even more excited to to see the big one it is going to be insane and I think it might make me nauseous because the little one did.

I was in class and like my professor said that nobody asked a question at the guest lecture we had to attend. I said that's not true I did I have the question in my notes app I can show you. Then this girl in a kinda mean voice was like I took notes I can tell you what you asked. It makes me feel like I'm super loud and that I don't know how much space I take up in an obnoxious way. I think it's ok to be loud and passionate, and that I never say anything that's rude. Also people laugh so much when I talk when I I don't say anything funny. But I realized that my favorite professor has the same thing happen to him so I am trying not to sweat it. I like me and I think the people who say things that hurt my feelings like me too I am just eccentric to them. It is a insecurity that I have held since childhood and I don't want to let it ruin how I interact with people. Tldr: I almost let the haters win but I'm getting my money up

I wear makeup in a goth way like wearing really white foundation, and my favorite lipstick color is black. I know goth is a music group first and I always listened to goth music peripherally but recently I have been really immersing myself in the genre. It's so vast and fun. I wish there were more intersections between hip hop and goth music. My brother and I think the closest to the sound is like cloud rap and lyrically more like trippie redds music. Most importantly though the Memphis Horrorcore scene, but it lacks the ambient noises that cloud rap has. I think trippie redd is a little cringe but I understand his appeal to teenage boys figuring themselves out. I know it is out there and I'm going to find it. I'm trying to curate my idea of it with songs I already know. I will update y'all in my journey.

The corpse flower in the greenhouse is getting super big its going to bloom soon so I'm checking it everyday until it does. I want to smell it so bad I am so so curious like the anticipation is killing me. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity. I am so so so excited I'll post a picture of the bloomed flower when I see it stay tuned.

My mom made brunch and I got cool gifts. Im 20 so crazy omg! :D A lot of my friends forgot my birthday but I am trying to give them grace. I got really emotional but I am calm. My family treats me so good on my birthday and it makes me feel so special. I really do love my life. Tomorrow I am getting tested for adhd lol lets just say I am probably gonna ace this thing :P Life gets so much more complicated every year don't yall think?

I love being around my huge rambunctious family but sometimes the rough housing is too rough. It is energy consuming and it takes energy away from talking to my boyfriend. I always feel like I am getting pulled in so many different directions and I can't be there for everyone. My 20th birthday is in a couple days and I hope it goes well around my 15 other relatives. I am feeling stressed like before my episode but I have to remember how much my family loves me and will support me. These next couple days will be about staying balanced and not putting expectations on anything. Gonna go with tha flow :P

I used my new special makeup today, got my nails done, and had lobster pasta. I'm so full of love and food haha. I got the benetint in dark cherry and I am thinking of wearing it on my knuckles to make me more undead looking. My boyfriend thought I looked really cute today and he was super sweet. I am one lucky lady.

My grandmother and I are spending the week together and I am learning so much about my family history. I had no idea about so so much and it is really nice to get closer with her. I am one of four kids and I can't even count how many cousins so I never really get to sit with her alone

love zombies and I think they are so cute, just like me! I'm a girl who always feel super hazy and sometimes my back problem makes my walk look funny. I groan and get obsessed very easily. Most zombies want brains or to infect, I want to eat icecream and bite my boyfriend hehe. Green and purple and pink look sooo good on me. My favorite is using purple eyeshadow to make my eyebags look stylish instead of trying to hide them. I embrace that my girliness and my rotteness make me so special :)

SPOILERS 28 YEARS LATER BONE TEMPLE He is just so me idk. Obviously I am not a big murderous infected man who rips people's spines out like you would open up a crawfish but I see myself in him... vaguely. I have episodes of hypomania and I know what it is like to be scared in my mind. To be honest, watching him get cured by Kelson helped me to get the confidence to see a psych and get on medication. It is healing seeing that disorders, genetic or by infection are not a pre-determinalistic prophecy that one will be destructive. I am in control with a little help from doctors and friends :)